This week is like a piece of trash that I want to avoid and will never look back. Look around you and you will feel that you are the weakest of all. It makes me want to compete... Wait.. Pause... [Short- Circuited] Hey!!! Competing is never my cup of tea, unless it is car-racing, fighting [the real one, real weapons and myself included :)] and etc, etc..
Exams were never my cup of tea. Ask me about exams, I will go pale and I will reply, "I did not study..." then I will hyperventilate, then crazy, then you will see me sucking up to Elynn with her repeating everything she had read. That time I will record what she said. So study life, no way. It goes to the trash, sometimes, just like my love life. I just wish someone invented a pill which is like a pendrive, storing anything you want into it, swallow it, voila!! You are a walking Wikipedia!! Wanna remove it..? Eat lots of fiber, it will go straight to your rectum. Sounds easy and awesome, right? I guess this invention only appears after millions years..
And doing the paper is not that bad. You did your best and you are satisfied. Your answers, wrong or right. No changes and move on with your life. But the worse side of exam is... your parents... In my case, it's my mum. She will be cold shoulders to me, the glaring eyes... [Can I just drop dead...?!?!?!] Then I will get the scoldings, etc, etc.. Blech.. It's a neck-strangling situation! I did my best, I was satisfied with the answers, the papers were hard, still I did my best. It's my papers and you are worried!?!?! Please do not make me laugh... You worry? Be my guest and do my paper. Don't want to? Your choice is no. [Fact here is:: The examinee is satisfied, however, the relation of the examinee is not satisfied.]
Hide the paper, you say? Nay, she'll ask about the exams!
Write her a letter? Cold shoulders...
Give her the papers..? I feel like walking into the trap...
Make her to understand you? Oh no! Try that once.. and what happened? Yell at me, thinking I worth a crap.
So what am I going to do? I seriously don't know. I need to crack my brain, just for this? What a no life job... Study sometimes are useless, you need IQ and EQ, NOT TEXTBOOKS IN YOUR BRAIN!! S**T!! SO WHAT? YOU GO OUT TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD FILLED WITH WOLVES, TELLING THEM ABOUT TATABAHASA??? ALGEBRA??? CALCIUM OXIDE?? ONE-MAN CRUSADOE??? DR. JEKYLL&MR. HYDE??? PUTTING A COMA BEFORE DAN??
The world is rather a cruel place. You can go crazy anytime, be suicidal, and die. Or be the wolves and eat the sheeps. Kill or be killed. Whose fault is stress?? And stop killing the trees.. for exam papers. Realistic is worth the crap, not me. And stop blaming me! Get this into your mind! I inherited your blood!! If you detest me so much, shall I cut myself and bleed out your blood? So stop blaming and pressurizing me!! Your voice is worse than the voices in my head!!! Please! You are killing me indirectly. So it's me making you psycho yeah? Then psycho this!!! I feel suicidal every single day! Dying had become an everyday option! I am becoming a zombie!! Stop increasing the murderous intentions of my demons!! Stop comparing me with them!! I am not even Form 4, he's Form 4 and I am Form 3. Stop making my beautiful world into a living pit of Hell!! Don't make me a wolf.. Don't feed the pieces of hate in my heart.. Stop blaming and start living!
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